My internet is down again! SO, my deviant plans have been foiled... for now I'm in the process of trying to get the connections all proper and what not, and I will be updating again in a few days with my (most probable lack of) success.

Don't you just hate it when your computer starts to hate you?! Ugh!

Ah - here I sit watching the update journal screen once again. And how I have missed it dearly!

I am once again returning to dA to continue with this online manifestation of myself due to my never-ending syndrome of burning fingertips. (My poetry I mean, personal drama dies here(or at my page at least), so if you want to throw a tantrum, do it elsewhere, thank you. I do believe that's why we have reality anyway. Get the attention the healthier way!

Anyway, in other words, I have more new poetry and a want to get back in touch with my dear watchers, for without whom, I would be deemed clinically insane for talking to myself right now

So then, let the games begin - OFF WITH HER HEAD!

Oh, almost forget to mention - I have ALOT of deviations to go through, so be patient with me and I will try to go through as many as I can from each of you, this week will be quite slow, but the next few weeks should bring more free time so, I'll do the best I can.

~SEVAS TRA~

It was ma birthday last Monday! ^^ I'm 19 now O_o I feel old.... ugh.
I've only stopped drinking really today, Just to breathe a little and get to a computer. Without getting kicked out or sidetracked obviously lol.

My favourite pub (Sally Longs, and if you're ever in Galway, go there, it's on lower Abbeygate Street ^^ you'll no doubt find me too haha)
Anyway yeah, the one of the barmaids Geraldine gave me a few shots of liquid cocaine on the house Gotta love that girl, she's class And I had pints coming at me from other peoples too, it twas heaven hehe. A very blurry but beautiful one

So yeah, I missed all my deviants. I was supposed to do a features there last Sunday, but between work and partying it was more than likely that when I told ~Scarlette-Shadows that I'd do it Sunday, I meant Sunday week So I should have it done either then or before the week is out.

I don't have much time here (I'm on the college computers, I have ways of getting their passwords mwahahaha...)
So I won't get to reply to all my messages. But I promise to do it soon.

So how is everyone then?

Well, I'm off. Have to meet peoples and probably get ready to go out partying again

love and hugs to all my watchers *hugs*

I got the last Harry Potter book - 'Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows', around half 12/1 o clock Friday night

I finished it last night. I would've sooner, but Saturday I was working and didn't get a chance, Saturday night I went out and had a weird night, recalled too many memories for it be fun But I did it in good company, so I suppose not all was bad.

So by Sunday I was recovering from a small hangover... Went to visit my friend Alan in hospital, he's got a really bad infection stemming from his elbow, running up along his arm. The doctor told him yesterday though that it's finally getting better, the antibiotics are, at last , killing the source of infection. Here's to hoping he'll be back terrorizing people soon Besides, I hate hospitals, and don't like visiting him there...

So anyway, it wasn't until late Sunday evening that I started Harry Potter. But, since about 12midnight last night, I have it finished.

I have to say, that although I thought it was kick ass, I think it really lacked in places. At times it was far too jumpy. I understand that alot had to go into the book, but still, I felt it way too rushed overall. Second Potter criticism lies in the last ''battle'' between Harry and Voldemort. Maybe I'm the only one that was left disappointed after it? I thought the build up, the climax, not only present in the Deathly Hallows, but throughout each book in the series, left me feeling very unimpressed with what should have been, the most memorable and epic battle of all the HP books.
But the book in general was very very good, I found it quite difficult to put down once I had started, though prehaps that was also because I was eager to find out the ending naturally. One point I will make is that The Deathly Hallows is by far the most mature of all the HP books, and I was glad to notice that JK Rowling hadn't tried to dumb down the fact that her characters were growing, just as her some of her audience are also.

Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows = 7.5/10 ^^
Not my favourite book of the series, but it's not the worst either!

In other random words, my birthday is fast approaching, although I'm not looking forward to it much... alot of very important people in my life will not be there

In defiance, and no doubt selfishness, I've created two birthdays for myself this year My fake one falls on the 28th of this month, this Saturday, to try and include the three people that will not be present on my real birthday. But Sunday, I also received word that one of those three may not make the fake one either... It hurts a bit... But I'm only going to let it hurt that much - only a little bit.

Ah I'm tired. I haven't even been working since Saturday yet I feel so drained and empty.
I couldn't sleep at all last night, it was freezing outside, but there was an odd stifling heat in my room.
It didn't help ease my worries.
The 30th of this month will be a hard one, a day I'll never learn to love or forgive.

Enough of my babble. Now, I just hope all is alright with my fellow deviants. Love to all of you

'' pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
pray your life was just a dream - the cut that never heals.
pray now baby, pray your life was just, a dream (just a dream...)

...the world in my hands, there's no one left to hear you scream -

.....no one left for you''

Marilyn Manson*, 'Man That You Fear'.

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* I do love MM, but his new album/song really sucks. I do not like it. The old stuff's great though